Trust in the Lord with all your heart
And lean not on your own understanding.
One of the hardest lessons I have been learning throughout this pregnancy , and will probably continue to do so throughout my life, is to not try to understand the ways of the Lord and simply trust in Him. The Lord my God clearly states that my thoughts are not His thoughts, nor my ways His ways (Isaiah 55:8).
Not questioning His plan does not come easy to me. I want to know why and how and when and where and why and why and why. Quite often there is never an answer to the why. But as I turn back to scripture there is always the ultimate answer. The why is to always for God's glory. Of course that leads to the how does this bring glory to His name and often we are the vessels serving Christ never know that answer.
The only thing that brings me peace in all this is to know that there is a greater reason for this trial. That in this is the will of my Sovereign and Loving God and He has a plan and it's a good plan (Jeremiah 29:11). I rest knowing that He has a good plan for Zion (Jeremy 29:11) and that He loves that little dark haired fellow far more than I can ever imagine.
I pray that I will see God in all this and that I not see this as an attack from the enemy but as a chance to shine for our heavenly Father and trust in HIS mighty hands.