*Katie are her blanket wallowing in the hall (do you see the baby bump in the picture?)
My life is precious, as is yours but you know what? Sometimes I forget that. I get caught up in the blog world, the great pictures, the simple lives, the homeschool choices, how this person lives their life, this person's choice of how they spend their time, how well this person expresses them self....
* Zion painting with his gun always near
Before I know it, I am wondering about the choices I've made. Maybe I should be using that curriculum, maybe we should be spending more time doing that, maybe we should be eating like them.
*Maggie and Emma decided all the clean dishes and silverware needed to be rewashed
and the kitchen needed to swept - my idea of fun : )
I *constantly* fall into the trap of comparing myself to others. But not only myself but also our family's lifestyle.
*my mischievous kitchen helper
I've blogged for over 5 years and if you've been following for long then you know this is a constant battle for me. I can't seem to let online life be online life. I've had so many areas of my life reformed by the Lord opening by eyes and allowing us to see others convictions in certain areas. I always worry about what I'll miss out on learning if I let it all go, not go my blog as reading others blogs.
*Maggie and Emma enjoying breakfast in bed served by their brother, with no prompting
Most all my fellowship and friendships are online. Not by choice, just by sheer lack of close choices. I know I am missing out on so much here at home because my mind and heart are constantly on things that matter not. I long for focus on my own life, to be more grounded in who and what we are, and "to lead a quite life". Anyone else battle with this?
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Same here! Pretty much daily I struggle with exactly what you're saying, but the last part in particular. About missing out here because my mind is elsewhere.
I feel like a cartoon with the little guys on each shoulder-one side saying your family needs 100% of you and the other saying (insert feed count) needs your story, the good, the bad, and the ugly. On the one hand, I've built some great friendships, ladies such as yourself I dream of fellowshipping with some day and on the other I'm overwhelmed with all the behind the scenes obligations, emails, comments. I thought it was a function of hormones with the last pregnancy, but I've been looking for an out for the last 1 1/2 yr. and I figure that has to be showing up in the quality of my writing anyway. Too many people I know in real life follow along with what we're doing and I can't be as honest and open. (I posted about that possum on fb a couple nights ago and my cousin's husband's aunt commented. Really?!)
I'm rambling, sorry. It's just really, REALLY good to get it off my chest. :)
So yes, I battle with this and feel like it's one of the next areas of my life that is in need of reforming. Blessings to you friend! Hope you're feeling well, enjoying that precious little life growing inside you! ♥
{{hugs}}
You are going through a battle that many bloggers do. I love to peek at beautiful kitchens and long for mine to be "just like that" but I know if I am to be content then I need to allow God to give me whatever HE wants and be content with HIM.
We lived with no friends close by for so many years. Just these past few years has God given us the precious gift of friends within minutes of my home. We walk together, we gather for picnics. It's wonderful.
But it was not always so. In those lonely times I think that God was working on ME and allowing us to be a family without distraction. HE was helping us become who we are by putting us away from all that would have pulled us apart. I am so thankful for HIM to care so deeply for me.
I don't think it's what you'd miss out on if you didn't read blogs but rather what rich blessing that Lord would give you. He will not leave you.
I think it's a sign of HIM working in your heart that you even have this struggle. If you didn't care then it wouldn't matter.
Bless you as you seek HIM for you daily living.
And if you're ever in the neighborhood you must stop by :-)
~Cinnamon
Emily I go through this all the time and what I need to remind myself is that the things people post on blogs or facebook is THEIR HIGHLIGHT REEL! Once I realized that, it made such a difference to how I viewed my life. I am not saying many people aren't transparent and write about the hard parts of life - but it's so easy to get caught up in so and so's new house, look at that great vacation, oh her children are always so darling etc. But of course we're not seeing the nitty gritty of everyday life and everyday battles they face. You are doing an amazing job with your family!
I battle with that too. I hardly read any blogs anymore, and I don't even do a great job keeping up with the ones I read, but everyone else's plans/accomplishments, etc. always look so much better and more successful than mine. Of course I think we all tend to post the good stuff. For example, I don't plan to blog about the fact that my 4yo got three spankings for not obeying during his rest time today. :) You know me well enough to know that things aren't always peachy over here. But it is definitely a temptation to struggle with discontentment and jealousy when everyone else seems to have everything all together.
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